Dragonfly in a matchbox

Our school had a very big football ground and before it rained, dragonflies almost always swarmed the place. But before the dragonflies come in, it was just another sunny afternoon. Someone shouted, “Pass the ball here”. “No, I’ll take it”, replied another. The rest started gathering all around him just to get that ball. Suddenly, black clouds covered up the sky. But that act of nature somehow could not manage to get our attention.

He tried hard to make his way through the seemingly ever-expanding mob around him. Finding even a small gap between the legs was getting more and more difficult. Wind kicked in next, but our ground didn’t have dry leaves to create the Mohabbatein effect. So, it was just gushes of breeze skimming over our sweaty faces and it was bliss. Some of us went into a sudden high and forgot all about that ball. Well, he took the opportunity and pushed it right into the goal, where the goalkeeper had his eyes closed quietly enjoying the breeze. We won the match and that’s the end of it.

But this was when those beautiful creatures called dragonflies came in. They came in all colours and were all over the place. And if you look at them from close, they have a very interesting resemblance to helicopters. I wondered if they used them to show helicopters at a distance in movies. Nonetheless, these dragonflies meant so much to me. I loved them, so I had to have them. Looked around and found an empty matchbox. And then the adventure begun. “Catch it and take it home.” After an hour of chasing those marvellous creatures, I managed to box one of them. I can only imagine the huge grin on my face then. Back to my class, I was  absolutely proud of what I did. I slid open its cover, very little every once in a while just to see my prized possession.

On my way home, I was happily flaunting it to everyone with a smug expression. But after I reached home, I forgot about it altogether and was watching Cartoon Network. After about a couple of hours, I remembered suddenly and ran to my bag to find the box. I slowly slid the cover as usual, but this time it wasn’t moving. I burst into tears and when I told my mom about this, she said

“If you really love something,
you don’t put it in a box.
You love it
and set it free.
If it ever comes back to you,
then your love is true.”

Cheers to baby steps

I have no idea where it all started but it has been brewing inside my head for quite sometime now. The cinematography bug bit me and it bit me hard. I have watched tonnes of movies and if I love the colors of one, I love the camera angles of another. Either way, it has become a part of my DNA to watch a movie for both what the director expects me to see and guess what the cinematographer is doing. How is the camera moving? Where did he put the lights to create the sunlight effect? F***, where is the camera, there is supposed to be a wall here? Well, its no myth that beauty is inspiring and to create something beautiful is more than a challenge. And ya, the challenge has managed to tickle my enthusiasm. I wanted to shoot something of my own, but it looked like too much of work and I didn’t even have a good camera. So, I was just waiting for an opportunity.

Then apparently out of nowhere, KK, a drams stalwart of the hall came back to KGP saying he is going to shoot a video and he was dead serious about it. Wow, its like a dream come true for me. Someone with that amount of passion shooting so close to me. I could get so much hands-on experience from the mistakes we make. So, I tagged along and used to drop in whenever there was a shoot. It was absolute fun. Sarkar wrote an amazing script and its a real pleasure working with the movie genius. Kushal the first year guy deserves an honorary mention for his action. I was worried he was actually getting hurt in an action scene. Today, we finished the shoot after a lot of hiccups. Hope the video turns out great after the editing and the dubbing.

Most of all, I love the fact that I took my first baby step in this direction. Now that I have some experience on my back, I hope to watch movies with a more experienced eye.

Cheers to baby steps !!!

P.S. : Feel free to drop in movie suggestions

A letter to a dude from his heart

Hi

How have you been? I am sorry, I didn’t write to you for so long. I was planning to write this for quite some time and I think now is the time.

You loved her. You loved her very much but you didn’t know how to tell her. You felt like holding her in your arms and kissing her, but your knees felt weak and all you could do was blabber. And that sunny day, the first time you saw her, you left me with her. Ah, that angel, with her hair falling over her face, the way she looked; I could see her through your eyes and let me tell you it was a delight. I knew you were happy. So, I didn’t say anything and happily moved on to live with the girl.

But, I think I know the way you felt through the times, as life hasn’t been very good for me here as well. Every single day, I beat for the two of you. Sometimes, when I am very sad, I beat faster. When I am in pain, I tend to miss a beat. After all that time spent in anguish, on one fine day you somehow buckled up your courage and proposed to her. Let me tell you fella, through the years I have known you that was brave. No doubt about it. That day was the day of my life. My happiness knew no bounds. I was absolutely hoping to see you both together. Then, you know, I and her heart would come together and dance along. We would cuddle each other, beat for each other and walk away into the sunset. Oh! What a sight it would have been!

And then, you told her that you love her and she said she liked you too. In all this turmoil, little did I realize that her heart was not here at all. Now that there is no hope here, I hope you realize that I am waiting for you.

Cheers

Yours loving heart

P.S. The pain is killing me. Come fast.